I SAW MOMMY KISSING SANTA CLAUSE!

It seems as if I'm not the only one thinking about Christmas right now. I vary between Bah Humbug mode and Oh Boy I can't wait! I really look forward to the decorating part, I also love baking. I usually make a wide assortment of totally sinful non-nutritious delicacies and wrap them in pretty bags and stuff and give them as gifts. Funny how something so simple as 'homemade' goodies bring such joy to friends and family alike. Although this a very time consuming task, I thoroughly enjoy the making, decorating and the giving parts, and lets not forget the eating too!

I really hope I will be able to just have fun this year and not allow myself to get all stressed out like I have in the past. I think that will be my end of year resolution... to remain calm in the face of the Holidays. Anyone else up for the challenge? It would be wonderful to have people wandering around humming Christmas Carols instead of running each other down trying to get the last whatever-it-was-the-child-asked-Santa-for-Christmas. What a different season we'd all have if we took the time to wish those we met tidings of good cheer instead of flipping them the finger when they cut us off in traffic. Let's give gigantic kudos to all the shop employees who put up with the ranting, impatient parents who leave their buying til the last minute.

My goal is to stay cheerful and polite throughout the season and pray for the people who just don't 'get it'. Seeing as we have but one chance to make a first impression let's all do our best to leave those we deal with feeling good about meeting us instead of cursing under their breath and hoping we don't come back! If only I were the ruler of the world, I would mandate such behaviors penalizing those who Grinch their way through life making sure all in their path are left feeling miserable. I would force these killjoys to spend a day alone in a room with only the piped in sounds of THE CHIPMUNKS CHRISTMAS CAROLS to keep them company!

Yup, I'm psyched for the Holidays alright ! The very best part for me is the fact that I will spend the holidays with Devilteen, I didn't get to see her until January last year, because I was messed up with my addictions. This year not only am I clean and sober but my child actually wants to be with me. That is definately the best gift for any parent to receive ( I'm not saying I won't accept presents though!) We'll get to decorate the tree and go shopping and do some baking and hopefully not want to kill each other aftr all is said and done.

I've even made comittments to other people already- I have volunteered to help out at the A.A. alcothon. Who is this person and where did the grumpy lushgurl go? Honestly though, For once I just want to be happy and be able to create memories that I can, but also want to remember. Things sure have changed from this time last year that's for sure. I will now take a quick tour down the hallowed halls of yesterday to remind me of how far I've come... I was working six days a week and drinking seven. The only contact I had with others was at my job, which I loved, but it enabled me to operate in a fuzz. My nights were spent drinking until I ran out or passed out, whichever came first. I hated me/ I worked to pass the days and drank to pass the nights, just me, no friends, no family around. I am very grateful to have the chance at a new life today.

Well I hope I haven't depressed anyone today, it's just really important to always remember where I came from so that I won't feel the need to go back there again. Anyway the whole point of my ramblings this eve was to share in the spirit of the holidays so won't you all join me in this rendition of an old favorite...

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS

AND A LOT OF GOOD CHEER!!!