Monday, July 09, 2007

THE SUN IS ALMOST OUT AGAIN


Hey everyone! I am working on getting back into an old routine that was doing well for me. So here is our Daily Reflection reading...

Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions pg. 70


The subject of humility is a difficult one. Humility is not thinking less of myself than I ought to; it is acknowledging that I do certain things well, it is accepting a compliment graciously. God can only do for me what He can do through me. Humility is the result of knowing that God is the doer, not me. In the light of this awareness, how can I take pride in my accomplishments? I am an instrument and any work I seem to be doing is being done by God through me. I ask God on a daily basis to remove my shortcomings, in order that I may more freely go about my AA business of "love and service".

Humility has always been a tough one for me to digest in that, I was never very good at accepting that there were any good things about me. After years of therapy and many light bulb moments in AA though, I realize that, as I am one of Gods' children, there is much about me that is good. I have talents and qualities that make me, well, me! I also have many defects of character which ..."stand in the way of my usefulness...". So on that note, I will also give you the Seventh Step Prayer, for any of you, who, like me, have a defect or two that they'd like to get rid of!

I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do your bidding. Amen


And here are just some of the things I have to be grateful for todAAy.

  • to be alive
  • to wake up clean and sober today
  • I got to speak to my mommy on the phone today- she still loves me!
  • I got to speak to my daughter on the phone today- she still loves me too!
  • God has watered my garden for me all weekend
  • more new blooms in my garden
  • that you guys humour me in my garden obsession
  • my obsession to drink and use has been lifted for today
  • gardening obsessions are not fatal!
  • I have everything I need today, and then some
  • my AAngel really apologized to me today, like from the heart and everything...yes I accepted
  • AAngel is coming today until Thursday night
  • all of my blog-stalkers....uh huh, that IS you!

12 comments:

Pam said...

wow...lots of good stuff today! So glad that you and Angel are kissin again ;)
I say Obsess over your garden all you want!!!

just another addict said...

More garden pics, please! I wish you could come to my city and fix up my gardens. I am struggling a bit with them --it's too frickin hot and DRY!!!
I wonder if my Mom stills loves ME? Maybe I should call her and ask. Thanks for the thought.
Peace and Love,
Scout

sharonsjourney said...

I am so glad Angel apologized from the heart, that's the only way to do it. And you two will get to spend some quality time together.

I love your garden pics, & hearing about it. Garden tending is therapeutic for me, you can't obsess too much, I don't think.

Take care of yourself.

Love ya

Mary Christine said...

Have fun with Angel.

vicariousrising said...

I'm so glad Angel sincerely apologized to you. Don't tell her this 30-something mom said this but I don't care what times are, if you love your mama, you should show some respect. You can be angry, but there's just some places you don't go and ways you don't behave. And respect's a two way street.

Hugs & peace,
Judith

Bouncing off the Bottom said...

You know when I took my first SUCCESSFUL 4th Step inventory I included a list of my strengths alongside the list of my many, many weaknesses. It made the whole thing more honest. Before I did this Step successfully, I swung constantly between thinking about myself awash with grandiosity and thinking about myself awash in self-abasement. After I used the more balanced approach, I began to be at peace with what I think of as my inner Popeye: I am what I am!

Shadow said...

uh huh, humility is hard, but once i learnt it, i realised how much good it does me. and enjoy your gardening obsession, it brings beuty into this world...

Nael C. Robes said...

So sorry I wasn't around either to check in with you. It sounds like you made it through. Missed ya lots and don't let Angel get to you. Teenagers push buttons.

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

Yaaaaa! Apology accepted. Ain't life beautiful again?

Send my warmest Malaysian regards to that Angel of yours, will ya?

Scott W said...

Proud to be one of your stalkers!

Kisses and hugs to you and Angel.

Trudging said...

Wow, very cool

Clarity said...

Hey Gurl-It's good to stalk to you again. I've been slacking in the blogging department and I've really missed it. It plays a bigger role in my recovery than I thought. Take Care, Lovey
XO
Clarity