Wednesday, May 09, 2007

I SUCK AT PICTURE TAKING!



Although my pictures leave much to be desired, I still want to share my garden with you all! Thank goodness I have a green thumb, because I'd never make it as a photographer! On that note, here is today's reading from 24 Hours a Day...

We alcoholics used so little self-control when we were drinking, we wre absolutely selfish, that it does us good to give up something once in a while. Using self-discipline and denying ourselves a few things is good for us. At first, giving up liquor is a big enough job for all of us, even with God's help. But later on, we can practice self-discipline in other ways, to keep a firm grip on our minds so that we don't start any wishful thinking, If we daydream too much, we'll be in danger of slipping. Am I practicing enough self-discipline?

In material things, you must rely on your own wisdom and that of others. In spiritual things, you cannot rely so much on your own wisdom as on God's guidance. In dealing with personalities, it is a mistake to step out too much on your own. You must try to be guided by God in all human relationships. You cannot accomplish too much of value in dealing with people until God knows you are ready. You alone do not have the power or the wisdom to put things right between people. You must rely on God to help you in these vital matters.

I pray that I may rely on God in dealing with people's problems. I pray that I may try to follow His guidance in all personal relationships.

Tornado

For me this is so true. Left to my own devices, I can leave a wake of destruction in my path. When I first moved to Toronto, newly out of treatment, some of my friends (who, by the way, were all guys), used to call me a little tornado. It seemed that I had a way of stopping by long enough to have someone (fall in) love me, and then I'd move on. I see now how very selfish I was then. I did not mean for people to get hurt, but I hurt them anyways. I know now how very insecure I really was. I had just broken up with my husband of seven months- so much for "better or worse". At that point in my life, I was feeling so unlovable, so I looked for the love 'out of me'. By the time I got back to recovery THIS time, I had been engaged five times and married once! Wow, talk about needing validation from other people! Today I love me, although there are still days when I love me less, I only need to listen to my HP, to know that I am loved, and not search for that love through others. I think this reading is appropriate in that, I do need guidance in learning to live with, and deal with people in my life.

Today I am grateful/thankful for the following...

  • although I suck at taking pictures, I can still share my garden!
  • I am clean and sober today
  • I am willing to learn and grow- even if sometimes it is painful to me
  • I do not wish bad things for anyone today
  • living in the solution feels much better than living in the problem
  • if I am open and honest, He can use me to carry the message
  • I am able to love people for who they are, not what they can give me
  • I am able to love myself for who I am
  • it is Wed. , that means I have my relapse prevention group and the Rainbow AA group
  • all of my blogging buddies...that means YOU
  • everywhere I look, there is beauty to be seen

I wish everyone a great day today, and one for me too!

9 comments:

Sober Chick said...

Hello my little Tornado ;) For what it is worth, I think you take Fabulous pix. Your garden is gorgeous, it appears that your tender loving and care is showing thru it.

Syd said...

Thanks for sharing your photos of the garden. You've done a great job. As far as looking for love in all the wrong places, it's what happens when you look for others to validate you. I did the same thing. I never realized that I hurt myself worse than if I had just looked inward and loved me. But I didn't know how at the time. I'm still working on that.

Pam said...

ahhh you rock girl.

Chocolateer said...

Ah, gardens. I love flowers and green things. Thanks for sharing yours! The weeds are taking over mine, and sadly, I'm not going to fight them this year. It'll only make it worse next year, I know. (Much like many things in life.)

recoveryroad said...

Thanks for your good wishes at my place. Much appreciated!

I too have felt unloved...for most of my life...the parent/family thing etc, etc.

Your post brought a lump to my throat (so much for me a tough London rocker, eh?)

Your grat list made me smile.

:-)

xxx

vicariousrising said...

You sound really good. The gift of hindsight is really wonderful, especially when we are sober enough to use it going forward.

Love the garden pictures! Keep at it.

XOXOX

Mary Christine said...

Love the garden. I don't think it is possible to take a BAD picture of a flower!

Clarity said...

Little Tornado!! LMAO!

Christine said...

crouch down to get pic from same level instead of from above--just a suggestion

glad you stopped the destructive him behavior and now have a Him.