Wednesday, June 13, 2007


Well, it's kinda hard to have a pity party when the flowers are bloomin' like this! My Asian Lilies have started to bloom, I'd have to say they are my absolute favourites, I have about five different colours of Asians, and they all bloom at different times! Of course I say they are my favorites until the next flowers bloom, and then the new ones are my favorites... I am such an alcoholic Huh? One thing I know for sure is that no matter how icky I've been feeling, I didn't drink, and that is cause for celebration in my world, I'll pass on the cake though, I've been living on ice cream to help me through my misery!!! So back to the business of living clean and sober, here is today's Daily Reflection reading...

Years of living with an alcoholic is sure to make any (husband) wife or child neurotic. The entire family is, to some extent, ill.
Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 122

It is important for me to realize that, as an alcoholic, I not only hurt myself, but also those around me. Making amends to my family, and to the families of alcoholics still suffering, will always be important. Understanding the havoc I created and trying to repair the destruction, will be a life long endeavor. The example of my sobriety may give others hope, and faith to help themselves.

Yes, I understand the insanity of living in an alcoholic home. And all of the times I waited for the next worse thing to happen, because I knew in my heart that it could always get worse... Today I pray to stay sober and to help my family and friends heal from the disease of alcoholism, that they were exposed to by my drinking. Today I am grateful for the following...
  • to wake up rich in sobriety- thanks Meg!
  • my new blooming garden
  • I haven't had to water the blooming garden, God has done that for me- thanks MC
  • to not have to remember how bad it was before I quit drinking- thanks Pammie
  • to know that as long as I don't drink, my life will just get better
  • to find that ice cream as a substitute, is still better than drinking
  • to not have to use ice cream as a substitute today!
  • I chose to not wake up crabby today- shhhhh- she's still sleeping!
  • for all the reminders of how good my life really is
  • I have everything I need and then some
  • ALL of you who still came to visit when I was so crabby!!
  • today will be a good day, because I will work on having it so
  • for all of YOU and you, and you too!

Have a great day y'all, unless you've made OTHER plans!!! MUAH -thanks Sober Chick!


Scott W said...

We love you, crabs and all!

sharonsjourney said...

Yes, we do love you. I'm so sorry you haven't been feeling well, wish I could make it all better for you.

Hey! I have Asian lilies too! I planted them 3 yrs. ago, & they're spreading to other places. I started out with red, I now have white, & yellow. I like the orange ones too. Yours are beautiful, like mine.

A year is a big deal. My first year, I went back out a week before my BD, I didn't think I deserved it. For some reason something happens to us around our birthdays, not sure what it is, but it's a dangerous time. You stayed sober!! You got thru it. I'm so glad! Don't want to lose you, gurl!

Thanks so much for stopping by.

Love You, Sharon

Zane-nawwaa said...

Your flowers are so gorgeous. The blooms of AA glow around you. Thanks for your kind words. Luv ya.

Mary Christine said...

You can be crabby all you want, we will love you anyway. Thanks for such a lovely post, and I love your lillies.

Syd said...

Hey, I study crabs. They're okay critters. Glad that you are letting crabby be dormant for a while. Liked your gratitude list.

Shannon said...

I just love you Lush : ) You are so cute and full of life and energy, I love love love it! LOL and I saw you Asian Lillies, and had to run outside to take a pic of my Tiger Lillies that are blooming YAY

Pam said...

I'm allergic to crab cakes.
love the flowers, I'll bet you talk to them too....cuz you're a little nut ball :)

Shadow said...

yip! very true. sometimes i think back to when i was a kid and the scenes that followed my dad getting home, not something nice to remember...

redcardinal said...

beautiful flowers, brightened my day!